dance mode!

well, today marked the end of mass media awareness month: a project of the college of mass communication, university of the philippines, diliman.

what's memorable? this actually is the first time i will be dancing as a new member of the up broadcasters' guild!

and the song happened to be "la gasolina", a song very close to my heart because it is the same song i used in my individual performance during the application process.

well, it is quite tiring, but there is something in me that drives me to be so hyperactive!

TOMORROW IS OCTOBER 1, 2005!

trust and love

I TRUST YOU
is a better compliment than
I LOVE YOU
because you may not always trust
the one you love
but believe me
you can always love the person
you trust for the rest of your life.

sender:
+63927***86**

well, i am not into keeping text messages like these. i erase them as soon as i read the content. But not this text.
my friend allowed me to read this message. and it struck me. hard. so i asked her to send it to me.

trsut and love... we often hear these words. but we cannot always say that it is always present.

this text struck me hard because i know how it feels to love someone you trust so much. distance is but nothing with trust and love.

but being this weak person that i am, i cannot help but feel insecure sometimes. and i am not alone in this predicament.

my friend and I talked about this (trust and love) at the tambayan this afternoon.

here are some points raised regarding the issue:

1. you cannot control what the person is thinking about you. and that is so scary. uncontrollable things just pop out and ruin things when you least expect it.

2. feelings are subjective. and it is not a concrete thing to be measured. who loves who more just cannot be known. it just can't.

3. same with efforts. love can be shown a number of ways. love cannot be measured by what one does (or does not).

4. conversation is the best way of trusting and loving someone. it may seem to offend at first, but in the long run, if you hide things, isn't that more offensive?

5. whereabouts are important. it may seem negligible to others, but for some, it isn't.

well, all i can say is that love and trust are two things that cannot be separated. when i said i am in love, it also means to say, i entrust you with who i am, and who i will be when i am with you.

globe sucks!!!

it has been three days since i wasn't able to send and receive mms. grrrrrrr!!!!! as much as i wanted to update my pix at friendster and picturetrail.

actually, i am talking to a globe customer service representative at this very moment while i am blogging.

i just hope i can send mms messages na!!!!!!!!!

ang bagong artista

because ICE is so nice (she helped me in editing at a vey affordable cost), i said yes to her when she asked me to become one of her talent in the film she's making.

and how lucky of me to do scenes with bikoy (a very talented guy-in almost all of the productions in up diliman cmc, he's included!. i actually asked him to be my talent also in my up and coming productions!)

sunday is relaxation day

woke up early in the morning. i heard my mom screaming. nothing serious though. she just saw our dog in her room. her concern: the dog hasn't taken its bath yet. so my sister and brother, together with my mom, cleaned the dog.

we went to sm marilao afterwards. have to get my eyes checked because my head is soooo aching. my myopia is a bit ok. but not my astigmatism. so,I have new eyeglasses!!!! I didn't buy another pair of contact lenses because i might lose it again.
(i'll post my pix with my new glasses on as soon as my pc at home is working properly again. just check my site: www.picturetrail.com/makey_upd)

As soon as we got home, we had a DVD marathon of disney cartoons and movies.

i know i have a lot of things to do. But my brain just can't take any more stress. So, instead of making my stressful tasks, i just helped my sister in her soap sculpture project. I also edited my brother's advertisement campaign that will serve as his final exam in FIlipino 1.

a busy (but happy) saturday indeed!

I have to wake up early today.

reasons:

1. i have to attend the morning class of comunication 120 of prof jorda. i cannot attend the afternoon class.
2. the reason why i cannot attend the afternoon class: up broadguild induction!
3. i have to go back to up diliman to watch dulaang kapiterya of up broadass with RD.

i don't know why, but it seems that the morning class of communication 120 is happier and livelier than our class. is it because of the fact that people wanted to sleep rather than to study in the afternoon? (note: our class starts right after lunch break. the room is airconditioned.)

anyways, back to the induction! batch 13, we made it!!!!! congrats. i know, we are into a lot lately, but we still managed to go this far. however, we shouldn't forget that this is just the beginning of another chapter of our lives. finishing the application process and the induction doesn't mean an easier life for us in the organization.

hmmmm.... as for RD... it's so nice to be with the person you love! no matter how fast the pace of the world seems to me, all i need is a smile from RD to make time pass by slowly. but no matter how slow time seems to be when i am with RD, it just isn't enough. i have a whole lifetime of loving to share-something that cannot be contained in our moments.

accomplishments!!!!

it's the presentation day for our research proposal. as planned yesterday at the library, i am expected to wear a purple shirt. however, this morning, i cannot find my purple shirt. so i just grabbed something that resembled a purple shirt.

the presentation was ok. we were the first to present because the group who is supposedly going to present before us hasn't arrived yet.

another thing! i finished reading the book that ice lent me (ang paboritong libro ni judas). well, i did so because i read the book while commuting.

i can't wait to read one of bob ong's books again...

(what captivated me most in the book was the line that states:

the destination isn't important. the journey is. (trans.)

happy bday mom!

its mom's birthday today. and because it's a special day, there is no room for misunderstandings. so, we just forgot all about the phone incident last night.

lat week, my groupmates in communication research 101 planned to stay overnight at pie's house to prepare for our presentation. however, i cannot do so. FAMILY COMES FIRST. (guess who said this?) so we spent the whole afternoon at the library to finish our paper, do some planning for the presentation, etc.

edit mode

wen to ice again to finish the editing work that we started last sunday. it's fun. especially because i did most of the voices of the lifeless characters in the audio visual presentation.

so we edited from lunchtime to midnights snack time... hehe

things were going ok, though i am feeling a bit sick. until...

ring....

m: hello po.
d: nasan ka na?
m: nag-eedit pa po. pero matatapos na.
d: gabi na. umuwi ka na.
m: opo, pagkatapos po nito. nagrerender na lang po kami at mag buburn na lang po.
d: e gabi na nga. iwan mo na yan.
m: hindi po pwede. isa pa matatapos na po ito.
d: gabing gabi na. baka kung anu-ano na ang inaatupag mo diyan a. hindi na ata pag-aaral yan e.
(d ended the conversation)

i got their point. they are so worried, i know. but is this conversation (or is it more of an accusation) something well meant for a student who does almost everything to get a good grade?

haaaaayyyy.... life....

broadguild rules!!!

got the acceptance letter from up broadcasters' guild just this afternoon! at last, the application process is over! (don't get me wrong. i sooooo enjoyed the application process!)

well, before that, "away mode ako" because i forgot to bring medicine for my abdominal pain!!!! grrrr... small things really piss me off. well, it all started this morning when i woke up at 3:30am. i don't want to be late for my first class at 7 in the morning. well, i was not late. but my professor did not appear in class though. i skipped breakfast for that class, then what?

then i realized that we do that to him also. most of us do get late during class. (gumaganti?!?!?!?!)

so, i just ate breakfast at CASAA. hehe. the chicken nugget meal made my day!!!! aside from the fact that the lady who owns the stall is sooo nice. i love buying food from that stall because aside from the fact that the food is sooo delicious, you still get a bonus smile from the staff.

edit and gala mode

this day, i met ice elloso for our editing tasks. was supposed to meet her at 12 pm after the mass in up chapel. but because of heavy traffic, i arrived at the vicinity at around 12:30 pm. hehe.

however, we cannot start on time because we have to borrow a mini dv camera for the mini dv tape. so, best friend pie comes to the rescue!!!

met pie at mcdo philcoa. she's waiting for some of up castpers. took the opportunity to eat mcdo's chicken meal. heehee.

then off we went to anonas (with a stop-over at araneta center for kuya erick's jersey shopping). then, i tried my luck to go BY MYSELF at sanville (where ice lives). the last time i went there, it was dark (around 10 pm) and we have a private car.

luckily, i was able to find ice's residence alive.

* i would like to say thank you to ice's family for their hospitality.

woke up early in the morning today, knowing that RD will meet me at ten in the morning. because of my health conditions, our plan to jog didn't push through.

well, i received a text that morning. RD can't make it at ten. so, i practically spent the whole morning with maymay at the library, studying court cases for our mass media law class.

isn't it weird that when you want time to pass by as quickly as possible, it seems that it does the exact opposite of what you want? i soooo wanted the clock in my temporary phone to display 4pm.

sir jorda dismissed us an hour earlier than usual. haaaaay...

tick...tack...tick...tack... then i suddenly felt that somebody texted.

RD!!!!!

i did something special today!

wala lang! hehe.

mag-isip kayo kung ano! hehe

medicines...

have to take medicines to ease the pain i am feeling. had some kind of gastrointestinal infection. acidity sucks, in this case!!! grrrr... mind you, it's a big sacrifice for me not to drink anything carbonated. pero, eto, acidic pa rin ako!!!!! grrrr talaga!

at least, i had my well needed rest. di ako pumasok sa mga klase ko today. hehe. (at nagawa ko pang ngumiti for a pic!)

i am sick

lst night, i just felt that my abdominal area is aching. then i felt cold. the next thing i felt was my joints and muscles are sooooo aching.

"me trangkaso ka", my mom told me. she then handed me medicines and fruit juices.

nice timing noh? good thing, there is something better than medicine that can give me comfort. rd called last night. what a relief!

totoo siya for me and rd.

ur birth date describes who you are, what
you're
good at, and what your inborn abilities are. It also
points to what you have to learn and the
challenges
you are facing.


To figure out your Birth Number, add all the
numbers in the birth date together, like in the
example, until there is only one digit.
A Birth Number does not prevent you from being
anything you want to be; it will just color your
choice differently and give you a little insight.

Example: March 20, 1950
3 + 20 + 1950 =1973
1 + 9 + 7 + 3 =20
2 + 0 =2
2 is the Birth Number to read for the birth date in
the example.

..1 THE ORIGINATOR
..2 THE PEACEMAKER
..3 THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
..4 THE CONSERVATIVE
..5 THE NONCONFORMIST
..6 THE ROMANTIC
..7 THE INTELLECTUAL
..8 THE BIG SHOT
..9 THE PERFORMER
--------------------------------------------------------------
.. 1 - THE ORIGINATOR
1's are originals. Coming up with new ideas and
executing them is natural. Having things their own
way is another trait that gets them as being
stubborn and arrogant. 1's are extremely honest
and do well to learn some diplomacy skills. They
like to take the initiative and are often leaders or
bosses.
-----
..2 - THE PEACEMAKER
2's are the born diplomats. They are aware
ofothers'needs and moods and often think of
others
be fore themselves.
Naturally analytical and very intuitive they don't
like
to be alone. Friendship and companionship is very
important
and can lead them to be successful in life.
-----
.. 3 - THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
3's are idealists. They are very creative,
social,charming, romantic, and easygoing. They
start many things, but don't always see them
through. They like others to be happy and go to
great lengths to achieve it. They are very popular
and idealistic.
-----
.. 4 - THE CONSERVATIVE
4's are sensible and traditional. They like order and
routine. They only act when they fully understand
what they are expected to do. They like getting
their hands dirty and working hard. They are
attracted to the outdoors and feel an affinity with
nature.
-----
.. 5 - THE NONCONFORMIST
5's are the explorers. Their natural curiosity, risk
taking, and enthusiasm often land them in hot
water. They need diversity, and don't like to be
stuck in a rut. The whole world is their school and
they see a learning possibility in every situation.
-----
.. 6 - THE ROMANTIC
6's are idealistic and need to feel useful to be
happy. A strong family connection is important to
them. Their actions influence their decisions. They
have a strong urge to take care of others and to
help. They are very loyal and make great teachers.
They like art or music. They make loyal friends
who take the friendship seriously. 6's should learn
to differentiate between what they can change
and
what they cannot.
-----
.. 7 - THE INTELLECTUAL
7's are the searchers. Always probing for hidden
information, they find it difficult to accept
things at
face value. Emotions don't sway their decisions.
Questioning everything in life, they don't like to be
questioned themselves. They're never off to a fast
start, and their motto is slow and steady wins the
race.
-----
.. 8 - THE BIG SHOT
8's are the problem solvers. They are professional,
blunt and to the point, have good judgment and are
decisive. They have grand plans and like to live
the
good life. They take charge of people. They view
people objectively. They let you know in no
uncertain terms that they are the boss.
-----
..9 - THE PERFORMER
9's are natural entertainers. They are very caring
and generous, giving away their last dollar to help.
With their charm, they have no problem making
friends and nobody is a stranger to them. They are
most of the time the life of very event,makin sure
evry1 is havin a gr8 tym

__________________________________
my birth number: 5
rd's birth number: 1
my sister kae's number: 5
my brother norman's number: 1
my mom's number: 6
my dad's number: 2
my grandma's number: 4

i can say that it is quite true.

right now, i am trying not to conform to the dictates of the society.
well, for one, conforming to the norms does not necessarily mean that a person is doing the right thing.
and if trying to "deviate from the norms" will make you happy, go on. we have separate lives to live. as long as it will not hurt anyone in the process, make yourself happy! Aja! ( the net owner is currently playing the lovers in paris soundtrack. )

as for rd, it is also true. rd is a born leader. i can attest to that.

conquer!

received an email from the voice of the youth philippines today. they are inviting me to their radio shows every saturday at RADIO UNO (DZME 1530)

sad... for this semester, i have an afternoon class (commnication 120- mass media laws)

the song of the moment

i finally found someone

I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, who makes me feel complete
We started over coffee**, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it's different (dah dah dah dah)
It's all because of you (dah dah dah dah)
It's better than it's ever been
Cause we can talk it through

My favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
This is it, oh

I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone (ooh, someone)
I finally found someone (ooh)

Did I keep you waiting (I didn't mind)
I apologize (baby, that's fine)
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair (sure it looks right?)
I love what you wear (isn't it too tight?)
You're exceptional I can't wait for the rest of my life
This is it, oh

I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone (ooh, someone)
I finally found someone (ooh)

Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

**friendster (hehe)

inspired

i am living one of those days that i am so inspired. i want to live like this forever. there are many things to do, and mind you, i feel like doing all that i can in these moments.

i decided to continue my journal. i, again, will keep my goals on the journal, and i'll monitor if there are improvements.

i want to pursue my mission of conquering (just what my second name implies: vincent- conqueror). today, my life, tomorrow, the world.

**RD, thanks for being my inspiration. i hope, i also play the same role in your life.

i felt happier in the past few days. well, there are many things that happened to me that triggered me to feel happiness in the real sense.

one factor is the feeling that you get when you long for a person after days of not seeing each other. then, you'll have the opportunity to let the person feel how much you have longed for the hugs and kisses. it's as if you own the world, and there is no one else in it. never mnd the rain. I was with RD! haaaayyyy...

i finally found someone... hehe. what else can be happier.

then there is the feeling that you are being loved by the person you love the most. there may be the physical distance between us, but i know that RD is somewhere, out there loving me from afar.

then there is the sense of satisfaction and contentment with all the things that i have done while attending the student leaders' convention sponsored by the USC. aside from gaining a lot of friends, the UP GRIFFIN seems to have hope after all.

then, slowly, i am patching things upo with my family after a long series of misunderstanding. it's not a big issue though. they just felt that i am being so secretive in the past months. they miss the old me who tells stories almost all of the time.

some of my friends told me that i lost my wallet and phone because something better will come my way. well...

the ups and downs of life

many things happened during those days that i wasn't able to post...

i met with R.D at UP some days back. R.D. saw that i am sooo perspiring, so R.D. handed me a hanky. It was weird for me to feel at ease with a person that i just met. R.D. was different. And i knew, there is much more thing here than friendship.

then i started feeling something special for R.D. During the times that we were together, i feel so calm, refreshed, secured, so at ease as if i have no problems to take care of. while watching the movie last tuesday, i almost forgot about the world. my full attention revolved on R.D. alone.

we met again just this thursday. we ate lunch together, and R.D. accompanied me while i was waiting for my class to start. while eating, we started to discuss about our status. i agree with R.D. we are not officially "us" but we act as if we were. what touched me most is that when R.D. said something about being ready for a relationship, but is willing to wait for me. if R.D. isn't the kind of person that is so worthy to be loved, then i think no one is worth loving.

R.D. and I became "us" (officially) last thursday. i couldn't want more. having R.D. made me complete. i am overwhelmed myself, with all these that are happening to me.

i always wear the ring that R.D. gave me. and somehow, the ring eases away the longing that i feel whenever we cannot see each other.

with all the things that i mentioned above, i should be very happy. i do. love-wise.

however, last friday, on my way to school, i lost my wallet and cellphone. i am so sad. really sad. aside from that, i even lost the hanky that R.D. gave me, and my contact lenses and the first love letter that R.D. gave to me. Good thing, R.D. went to the rescue. we met that day. and as usual, R.D.'s hug consoled me.

i can say that R.D.'s hug is a therapy. It soothes me. and whenever I look at R.D., i just cannot stop myself from smiling.

then yesterday, while we were preparing for our final production, R.D. texted. R.D. wanted to be there at the production. at first, i really don't want R.D. to go there, because i might be conscious (my role isn't as normal). But i really wanted to be with R.D. well, instead of being conscious, i am so inspired, just because R.D. exerted effort to be there for me. although R.D. has to work early, R.D. sacrificed some time of sleep.

now, i am sad, because of the things that i lost. moreso, i am so sad that i cannot text R.D., and we won't see each other today. all that i can do is type this, while looking at R.D.'s pictures in my PC.

**I met R.D. at friendster. We then chatted and found out about our similarities. it is as if R.D. is my alter ego. but now, i feel that R.D. is my soulmate.