sorry

sometimes, i get this feeling that if i fail to be strong, all things will fall apart. that is why i have started to cope up with the defense mechanisms that i have, but seldom use.

but with those mechanisms, i began to hurt people, especially those who love me so dearly. siguro nga, wala na akong ibang alam gawin sa mundo kundi ang manakit e.

and for that i apologize.

sometimes, i end up trying to evade things for me to end up not getting hurt. i try not to give much fuzz about things, but yeah, you are right. i am just saving it at some other time. in the mean time, it is building up slowly.

i did not deliberately ignore your feelings just so to hurt you... i won't do that... pero recently, i am trying not to get hurt myself for me not to fall apart. i am at the verge of falling apart.

831.